First, I would like to say that what I have written down here is the deepest part of my soul. I am, after all, human and, like you, I too fall short sometimes. I am simply a man trying to find his path in life's journey. Maybe I can help you in your path. All of what I have written down here is what I have gone through personally in my life's journey

To achieve, one must attempt. To attempt one must be confident. To be confident one must say "I CAN." - Malvin Traylor

WHAT IS LIFE !?

To be,
To do,
To depart. Is that all ! ?
NO ! ! To be all that you can BE ! ! To do all that you can DO ! !
To depart knowing that you did all of the above .
- Malvin Traylor

LIFE'S JOURNEY

In life's journey there are many paths, each path has it's truth and faults, some path's will be felt like the point of a sharp sword, that will cut deep and only time will heal the wounds, other path will have hardship and strife, sorrow and pain. Yet other path's will be filled with joy and laughter and cheer, and in life's great journey there will be obstacles great and small, only courage and determination will help you to over come any obstacles in life's journey. Remember It is not so much where we stand in life's journey , but in what direction we are moving.
- Malvin Traylor

*NOTE*

IN LIFE'S JOURNEY, WE SOME TIMES FALL SHORT OF OUR (GOALS ), AND IN OUR SO CALLED FAILURE BY WHICH WE ARE BLINDED BY, WE FAIL TO SEE THE GREAT JOURNEY THAT GOT US HERE, THE ACHIEVEMENTS, THE COURAGE, THE STRENGTH, THE FRIENDSHIPS AND THE BONDS THAT WHERE MADE. THE EMPOWERMENT OF THE OBSTACLES THAT WHERE OVER COME ! ! ! ( BECAUSE SOMETIME THE JOURNEY IS MORE REWARDING THAN THE GOAL)
- Malvin Traylor

SILENT FEAR

I wish neither to oppose nor give way I no longer need to oppress, More important, I no longer need to impress The medicine for my suffering I had within me from the very beginning, But I did not take it. My ailment comes from deep within me, The fear that stirs deep inside me, The lack of ability that my mind perceives, The lack of confidants in my self, But I did not observe it until this moment. This moment in which each person does not want to face. The moment in which your mind not your body tells you, that you must give up or that you have lost. Now I see that I will never find the strength

or the courage Unless, like the warrior who gives his life freely, and fear not of death or of failure, but to be able to over come the obstacles that lays before me, and to look deep with in myself that IF I get defeated it's but a stepping stone to self knowledge, To understand that in life there will be VICTORY and DEFEAT!! To Gather my mental strength and consuming myself in it. For mental confidence is the difference between WINING and losing.
- Malvin Traylor

THE SEED

The seed is a promise of a future, a future yet to unfold. It is nothing but a block of clay that needs to be sculpted by the MASTERS hands. The seed knows not of GOOD or EVIL or YOUR WAY or MY WAY, It is a blank slate. With endless possibility. The seed will blossom and grow strong but it will have it's share of hardship and contention: IT was once said that "THAT THE MOST BEATFUL FLOWER IS THE ONE THE GROWS IN ADVERSITIES" Is not ADVERSITIES what builds strength and spirit?! YOU ask Why does that flower grow among the weeds in the street? WHY do you ask WHY?!! YOU should ask HOW!!!
- Malvin Traylor

A THOUGHT

Why is it, that we look to others for self worth?

NERVOUS ENERGY

Anxiety is energy that does not flow, anxiety/nervous is emotion that can not be converted to action, and it is bottled up and stagnate. Some times it is fear that triggers anxiety, food, sound or smell, We must utilize positive energy or thought to over come that, we must let the energy flow like the river from on top of the mountain to the sea.

If the mind is racing and not calm or focus neither is the body, for what the MIND PERCEIVES THE BODY BELIEVES! Exercises is an out let for this energy. All existence is based on positive, negative and neutrally charged energy. All things are composed of these three fundamental energies and their interaction. The atom provides the model for which all things are to follow, positive and negative including human behavior. So let not the worries of today affect your life! Be positive in your thinking for it will affect the rest of that day.
- Malvin Traylor

A WARRIORS FEAR

As I walk down life's journey , I walk with assurance and resolve, I walk with strength and Confidence outwardly... but inwardly I shake and tremble troubled with fear or apprehension. Thou you do not see it . The fear that shakes me to the core of my being. I fight battles of the mind, battles of Physical nature are of no Consequence to me. In my life's journey I have seen

Happiness and sadness, fear and courage, truth and lies, meanness and kindness all which has touch my life in ways that I do not understand. Why do I fear of living life? More importantly why do I fear death? I now have a family my very heart beat, death was a gift in my life's journey at one point I did not fear but dared it in battle. Now I wish to grow old but as a warrior old is not seen often as life is short and lived fast.

My mind is cruel as it perceives danger when none is present, my heart races , my body anticipate a battle I tremble with readiness. I do not know why this happens to me, is my mind leaving me? I wish to grow old with wisdom and insight of life to IMPART what little knowledge I have gathered in my life journey to my Son & daughter. My Minds eye has seen and felt wonders things, They joy of my sons birth, the welcoming of my be loved daughter to this world, yet I am still distressed , Why am I fearful?

ONE LAST THOUGHT

"Anxiety in energy that does not move, when the mind is racing the body is not at peace. What the mind perceives the body believes. How can the body be at peace IF the mind is not at rest. One must quite the mind so that the body can be at rest. To do this one must let what the WORLD has put upon your shoulders FALL and when it does the light of the WORLD will shine and you will see that the troubles facing you are but a small thorn that is deep and painful, but with calmness one can pull the thorn out and continue on the life's journey to what yet awaits us in this wonderful world we know as home."

Why can I not follow my example! I have much weight on my shoulders but no more than any one else and I do not precisive any daunt task at least in my conscious mind. I long to feel courage in my life as well as health, I fear that my body is losing to the man known as FATHER TIME, my insecurity is vile to me and I fight with my mind on this over and over again. My beloved wife is my very strength the backbone of who I am as a man.

She has pull me from the brink of self destruction, She found nothing but a broken vessel, yet she saw something in me that to this day I do not understand. She believed in me when I did not believe in myself. Her LOVE and KINDNESS are overwhelming to this day, I am grateful for her unwaivering love and support for without her I would be lost. I fearfully wait to hear her voice as it soothes my soul when I am in a battle with my mind. My joy is with my FAMILY my Dad , brother , Wife and my kids.

LIFE'S battle for me is in the mind I fear sickness yet I am not sick, I fear loneliness yet I am not alone, I fear death yet I am not dieing. " yet I heard it said, that the moment of birth one starts to die" Why do I precisive the worst in all things? Why am I a COWARD when it comes to living life? Sad that a life such as it is could see so much potential yet fears to succeed.

I long the be the warrior of old, the warrior that had no fear of life, death what ever confronted me I faced with arrogance,contemptuousness, Who and what are you that I should fear you?! I spite upon you "fear" you have nothing on me!! YOU are but a stepping stone in my journey and a thorn in my flesh. To see what has been and now to see what is is humbling, That No man can survive on his own for long but that he needs LOVE, UNDERSTANDING, ACKOWNDGLEMENT. The STRENGTH of one warrior is GREAT, but the warrior with the collaboration of family and friends is GREATER
- Malvin Traylor